im moving toooooo slow

So lets see....March started with my daddy and ended with J. My dads 61st bday was on March 1st. We were supposed to go to the cemetary but my biotch ass sister went without us so J and I went to my moms house and spent the day with her. J turned 1 at the end of the month and we had a big party for him. My baby is soo advanced (no jinx) and im sooo proud of him.
I got my drivers license, after having my permit for 8 years and driving for 10 years, in April. Ive also been dreaming about my dad a lot this month. I still miss that man so much.
School has been kicking may ass. Its not that its hard, the problem is I cant seem to concentrate and focus like I used to. Im going to try to kick ass this month and up my grade.

Theres so much I want to talk about but too many people read these damn blogs and I dont want the world in my BUSINESS. *sigh* I need to pack my shit and move to another state with J and my mom. I need a new LIFE. Im tired of it all.

Why is it no matter how much we try to be good people shit just never works in our favor?